Lets be honest...

My life has been rooted in anything but conventions. Strange traditions, loud vulgar conversations, and a lack (or rather a reinterpretation) of family values. Needless to say my upbringing is different at the very least. However I am hesitant to say that the abnormality of my home dynamic is the sole origin of my now (and still ever evolving) identity. 

Ideally I would like the idea that I am the sole creator of my identity. That I consciencely crafted who I am through each decision made throughout a lifetime, as well as how I decide to present myself on a daily bases. Ultimately if there is one quality who’s importance has never wavered. Honesty. Being honest with myself and with others. I accredit this to the free flowing nature of conversation with my mother, sister, and grandmother throughout my childhood and adolescence. I have never lied out of necessity, or feeling as though I was going to be in trouble. I had nothing to hide, and felt as though being a different person around family as opposed to who I was with others was simply too much effort. 

My research is going to be a search for an explanation of my rejection to another convention. The idea of being “ladylike”. Why does this idea seem so unattractive to me? But also I want to explore the interpretation of ladylike to other young women, and how it affects them. As well as the evolution of women throughout history, and how it lead to the "modern woman".